Desperate Times for This Mistress

Surviving the Crisis ~ Beggars or Choosers

A personal update about Mistress Lila’s life

What happens when a Mistress suffers unexpected and uncontrollable circumstances that affect her self-reliance?

“I hate whining,” I said to my slave. I’ve been experiencing an unusual and rare episode of depression.

His said, “Mistresses never whine, they merely state their preference.” That made me smile.

It was an amusing and intelligent response from him, considering slaves must never criticize or negate their Mistress in any way. A whining Mistress is not a good thing. Mistresses hate whining. They hate hearing others whine and they especially hate hearing themselves whine. And Mistresses hate asking for help. It feels like an admission of weakness or failure.



The Mistress persona exudes self-confidence, self-reliance, and self-control along with the illusion of having others fall at her feet with hopes they will be controlled by her as well. Many slave applicants make the mistake of thinking Mistresses control their slaves. Actually, Mistresses teach you how to control yourself in a manner that pleases them most.

Being a control freak (most Mistresses are!), I always made sure I worked and earned enough income to be self-reliant. Relying on slaves, submissive men, and others in general to support you does not sit well with most Mistresses. Sometimes it makes me wonder if it is a control issue or lack of trust issue. I always want to be sure I can take care of my material needs, but I allow others to take care of my physical and emotional needs. I guess that is because slaves come and go. Most slaves serve a Mistress for 18 months to seven years, and then move on with their lives.

Slaves create a multiple-income household for a Mistress, which is nice. With each person added, you have a little more extra income that can be used for entertainment and items above and beyond general expenses, and someone to ease the chore and work load. Extra income buys a Mistress 600 thread sheets and down comforters for her bed, manicures and pedicures if her sissy is not trained for that, spa treatments, eating out, a new mini-appliance, a tea infuser, a fancy coffee pot, and maybe Belgian chocolates. Mmmm, chocolate! Yes, I am a chocolate freak. Really want to turn me on? Wine and dine me with chocolates and chocolate-flavored coffee. *grin* Sorry, got off track there for a moment … Multiple income households are nice, however, it also adds the burden of another mouth to feed and additional expenses to support when things go awry.

Phone sex seemed to be the perfect job for a Mistress. A Mistress can use her real life experiences to entertain and help men with their masturbation addiction – and get paid for it! Who better for phone sex than a Mistress who knows the kinkier side of sex! So, I went to work at Nite Flirt. It’s a self-employment type business where you post a web page and Nite Flirt takes care of the phone calls and credit card transactions for a fee. It’s really the only good working model of this type out there. It works for me and many other sex industry and alternate lifestyle people. As a Mistress (and control freak) I can set my own hours and control with whom I do business.

But what happens when a Mistress suffers unexpected and uncontrollable circumstances that affect her self-reliance? I find myself in such a predicament now. The recession is beyond my control. The reorganization of Nite Flirt (my job) is beyond my control. My household slaves and sissy being laid off are beyond my control. Like a stack of cards, the walls around me continue to fall no matter how much I fight it.

Many callers and customers do not know this about me, but I am diabetic. I have been diabetic since childhood due to a pancreas disorder. The disease has good points and bad ones. It keeps me slim and trim, which is good. It’s expensive which is bad. It affects your moods, emotions, energy and eating habits, which is bad. I have to use ready-pens because an injury to my left hand makes it difficult to uncap and load the syringes. To handle the expense (about $500 a month for me), I married one of my slaves who has good health insurance. It is purely a financial arrangement and he signed a pre-nuptial agreement and undated divorce decree in case I decide to dissolve it.

That brings me back to chocolate. Chocolate is one of my rare indulgences as a diabetic. It’s a myth that diabetics can never eat sugar or sweets. We merely have to adjust our insulin intake to cover our sweet tooth, and make sure we don’t over do it. I use all my indulgence for specialty chocolate. *big grin*

Another thing callers do not know about me is I am a late life baby. This means my parents are elderly (mom is 78, dad is 82). My parents live in Las Vegas, and once a week, my sissy with has caretaker training and I spend two days with them (usually Monday and Tuesday). My parents are both suffering from the early stages of Alzheimer’s and their physical health is deteriorating. I cook several meals for them and freeze them. My sissy cleans the house and treats any medical problems. And we take them shopping and to doctor appointments. I plan to buy a small home in their immediate neighborhood so I can provide more time for them.

Well, now you know a little more about me, so I’m going to tell you why I’m “stating my preference” *whining*. I am in a position where I can sympathize with many fellow Americans. Due to the recession and loss of income within my household, I will be selling my home (probably at a substantial loss to the equity) and moving into a smaller, more reasonable residence. At least, I hope I’ll be able to sell it. One of my slaves had to allow repossession of his vehicle, and another had to relocate his mother from a nice nursing home to the home of a relative. Being the only real income earner other than some unemployment coming in, Nite Flirt’s sudden closure for server upgrades is about to do me in. By the time Nite Flirt is operational again, I will have loss nearly a month’s income. Plus, the return to work will present us with fewer customers (many have bailed and went to other services) and a need to advertise again to rebuild our client base.

Up until now, I got by comfortably with my Nite Flirt income added to my slave’s unemployment. “Comfortably” means no frills but the cupboards are full of food, my insulin is covered, the bills are getting paid, and an occasional free hotel stay courtesy of a kind customer. Sometimes that’s enough.

This past month has placed me in the “not enough” category. This is where I whine. Thoughts of an insulin pump or stocking my kitty with chocolate are gone! I’m just working on the basics now. And to do that, I need my regular callers and customers to continue supporting their masturbation addictions with me. I know times are tough. About half my customers contact me via phone only, and the other half use their computers along with phone contact. Until Nite Flirt is fully operational again, only my computer customers can contact me. That’s a huge loss of customers and income, plus those who can contact me only have sporadic accessibility. But I know I have a few callers who may be able to manage a little extra until things return to normal. I’m certainly not looking for handouts. All I want, all I need is for my Nite Flirt slaves, submissive men, fellow chocolate lovers *yummm,* favorite callers and phone friends, who can access me, to continue supporting my business venture (phone sex) with their calls, assignment and lesson orders, gifts and tributes. And I will continue to delight you all with sex play and phone-fornication *grin*. Tit for tat!

So, how about it? Dig a little deeper in those pockets this month, add a little bit more to that credit card. Send an Amazon gift card or grocery certificate to Albertsons’ or another food chain. Purchase a slave contract, sissy lesson or masturbation aid. Send me a little love tribute or box of chocolates. The new site link is http://beta.niteflirt.com/mistress+lila . Updates are available on my blog at www.mistresslila.blogspot.com and through my Yahoo Group at http://groups.yahoo.com/group/mistresslila/ . My Amazon Wish List is https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/2W8WXQMAG05SJ . My personal emails are ladylila2006@yahoo.com or ladylila@sbcglobal.net . If you can’t afford a call or gift, how about a letter of love or support? I’d love to hear from you.